Tired of being Tired

Tired of waiting, anticipating.
Tired of stories, of children's worries.
Tired of notes, of false hopes.
Tired of whispers, you ditch and I end up wishful.

tired of making every man, my perfect man.
Tired of taking serious who make me furious.
Tired of living life on hold
because happiness is not found in a bowl.

Tired of walking around with my hear on silver platter
for everyone to grab a hold of, just to run of and drop it
near the shore
where only the ocean can cure it all.

Tired of wanting, desiring.
Tired of NOT following myself,
loosing track by trying to find someone else.

Tired of being tired,
Tired of not being me.

Tired of writing verses...
that just define who I don't want to be.